I often see in movies dying people giving the last words to other people around them and they seem to know exactly when the death is coming. I’m kind of worried about this because I’m afraid that I will be in the same situation as when I say bye-bye to my friends right before the train door closes. Sometimes, the door doesn’t close for 5 or 6 secs after I hear the bell and say ‘good-bye, I’ll miss you’ for thousands of times and it’s really embarassing and uncomfortable. Knowing how wrong my assumption can be sometimes, I’m afraid that the same thing may happen when I die. I’d be like “Oh, what a wonderful life it was.. I love all of you and I will miss you forever.. here comes the angel” or something like that and then, the death doesn’t come for like 10 mins, way longer than everyone can keep producing the tears in such an uncomfortable atomosphere. As my friends and I always feel in the train situation, I wonder if other people and I would be like “come on, death.. just end this awkward situation.. please.”

Maybe I’ll just close my eyes and pretend to be dead before I die for real.